|Grace Cummings, artist|
To be succinct: I paint God's Mistake.
Yet, that simple statement is infinitely complex.
Yes, God has an error. However, it is not the kind of mistake that humanity should avoid because this error is the lifeblood of our spirit.My work as an artist expresses the new perception that God is full of sin and that is a miracle as well as humanity's connection to God.
My work began with the explorations of fear, which also attracted error and doubt as integral components of my quest. In that journey, I stumbled upon the reality of cruelty and the simultaneous revelation that cruelty is a misunderstanding. The sad irony behind my research is that this emotional darkness of cruelty originated in the magic and mystique of innocence. It is related to the misunderstanding of mortality; which is not the same thing as death. Mortality is Time and death is the lack of everything.-- By the power of observation we can realize this.-- Neither God, nor humanity has conscious power over death because death is the lack of any sentient ability and the lack of everything. Death cannot witness itself. --This is simultaneously our sin, and our miracle. Our initiation into mortality begins at the conception of our lifetime; cells in the womb that become our personal body. Yet, each of us before we are created (by someone else) is "dead." Each of us lacks the conscious awareness of our personal existence. Yet, this is not a recognition of the state of death. It is the recognition of division; the awareness of existence vs. the awareness of not existing. Additionally, it is the awareness of "I" being separate from "WE." Each of us is born into pre-existing life, where each of us is "what did not previously exist." Yet each of us comes from pre-existing life, not from nothing. --Thus our mortality does not create death, it creates a change in life, which is "sin/division." Each of us is a different resurrection of life and living.
Sadly, our awareness of personal mortality also generates our moral crisis about the value of our existence. Our birth is an inescapable relationship to someone else, accompanied with our need to survive for a limited time. Someone else wants us to live before we ever consider that option. We are brought into existence without our permission in this choice. Secondly, our moral relationship with them is beyond our personal evaluation of them because they created us. -Thus moral crisis begins: Why do they want us when they don't yet know us? Do they hate themselves so much that they can't simply enjoy their own existence? Or are we created simply to keep the belief in the value of their existence going? Why must we worry about surviving if we are not going to last anyway? Who decided that living was valuable to begin with? Was it God? or Fear?
Fear is a universal emotion that I have witnessed in all sentient life; the fear of loss. On a simple level this fear expresses itself in the desire to avoid death. On the moral level this fear expresses itself with respect to a much more volatile sentient capability; the fear of the loss for the value of existence. Such fear is associated with the abstraction we call God, but is directly traceable to our own hearts; "Do I want to live or die? Do I want you to live or die?"
In 1995, my understanding of error was very limited. I still assumed that error was "sin that was evil." That changed when I was given a message during a paranormal moment where I was told: "GOD IS FORGIVEN." -- My research since then has been to unravel the meaning of that phrase, the feeling of that phrase, the relevance of that phrase, and to try to communicate it's relevance. All of my artistic work deals with the concept and perception that God is Forgiven, and how that is relevant to TIME and human morality.